Gah, if you read my blog regularly you will find the following blog very familiar.
I started this blog as a way to hold myself accountable for my eating, losing weight, and overall pursuing a healthier lifestyle. In October of 2010 I made the decision to change my 255 body forever and in turn to really change my entire life. 113 pounds and 11 months later I felt WONDERFUL.
But slowly...I have become very unmotivated. A year ago I NEVER would have missed a day in the gym....but over the last few months...I have missed several. For me that's a BIG DEAL. This week I missed 3 days. I have felt horrible, unmotivated, and basically been eating whatever I want. By that I don't mean I'm binging on hamburgers and ice cream. I eat my healthy food....but...WAY MORE OF IT. I eat out with friends almost every day. I'm.just.unmotivated.
This is scary for a few reasons. I've lost weight before and gained it back because I became complacent and "happy enough" with my body. I WILL NOT DO THIS AGAIN. Being unmotivated freaks me out because I CANNOT go back to 255.
I think another reason for my lack of motivation is because I'm not gaining weight. I'm the exact same weight and while that is a good thing...it has made me feel like "well why not eat what I want since im not gaining weight!" Stupid reasoning because I end up OVEReating and then feeling bloated, gross, and miserable. When I eat like that I don't want to go run, workout, or do anything really.
Being off work and out of school for a whole month of vacation has allowed me to get out of my routine and make excuses for myself.
I'm tired of that though. I have so much HAPPY and EXCITING things going on in my life that I refuse to let this conquer me and hold me back. It's time to TRULY get back on track. *NO MORE EXCUSES*
My goal is 135...and I've been saying for MONTHS now that it's time to get there...this time..i mean it. It's time to quit allowing myself to say "oh well i'm not gaining weight so it's okay if i eat this or that" or..."I don't see my body changing as much, so why even go to the gym" etc.
So, I want to put some progress pics up tomorrow and use those as a basis to lose these next 7-10 pounds.
I def want to be at my goal weight before I start wedding dress shopping...and that goal is 135...it's time to do this.
3 comments:
You are so going to reach your goal weight but don't forget that you already look amazing! You are such an inspiration!
We are going to have to start going to the gym at the same time so when I feel like quitting you can smack me and when you feel like quitting you can look at me and remember what you use to look like and keep going! lol...best of both worlds! haha!
P.S. We need to get this cruise BOOKED! I'm getting excited! :)
Your blog post is exactly how I have been feeling the past few months. I feel like that I have been in the 170's forever and I didn't even reach my goal of losing 100 pounds in a year. It's hard sometimes when you tell yourself nonconsecutive things.
My advice- Just keep moving forward and remember if you tell yourself or tell other poeple that you can't do something than you are setting yourself up for failure. Thinking and saying negative unproductive thoughts just enforces unproductive behavior. No more "word prisons". I know you can do it!!
Hang in there girl. You can do it.
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